I just finished watching the season opener of Season 8 Biggest Loser. WOW!!! It grabbed me, pulled me in and hasn't let go yet. I was crying, evaluating, discouraged and motivated! They're naming the season 2nd Chances. I've had that many and more. How many more are waiting for me before I'll be like Tracy? I really hope she does come back but at some point there are NOT any more chances. When will I have my last chance?
I've been missing in action. I'd just like to give a HUGE thanks to those who have still reached out. I know to receive support I too need to give it.
The title of my blog is Overhauling-Me! Besides getting in shape there are many other areas in my life that need to be overhauled. Organization, finances, marriage, kids, health issues, etc... For several months I haven't been working on my weight but I have been working on many of the other areas. It's been a long haul,I feel I've made improvements but there is still a long way to go in every category and it is so exhausting. I need to learn to take things a little at a time to keep from burning out so that I can keep making the changes no matter how slowly.
Focusing on a healthy me needs to be a priority. How am I going to get going? I'm not sure. I haven't made a game plan. There is always the basic one...eat less, move more. Those four simple words is really the key to losing weight, getting healthy and keeping it off.
I'm thankful for this opportunity to have yet again another wake up call and another chance.
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Committing Out Loud!
After taking several weeks off, to be honest I'm not sure how long it's been, I'm ready to get going. I haven't weighed myself for awhile and will get on the scale tomorrow morning. I'm assuming the numbers will be close to me starting weight but I'm hoping I haven't gained it all back.
Life has been crazy. Well, life is always crazy with 7 kids but it's been crazier than normal. Part of it is due to the economy and how it effects my husband's job and then that trickles down to other worries and concerns. Unfortunately I'm the type of person that EATS when things get tough. I want to be the kind that thirsts for exercise to relieve stress.
We received our tax refund. My husband and I decided that our health needs to come first so we purchased a treadmill. It's set up in our garage waiting for me to get on it. I'm waking up at 5am to do 30min. I have my clothes, shoes and ipod set out. I wanted to commit out loud so I'll feel more accountable.
I'll have to make my rounds to check on my weight loss blog buddies. I hope everyone has met with more success than I have. For those of you on the A-team KEEP ON GOING!!! I've missed too many weigh-ins but I'm hoping to do BLBE #3 if one is started again.
Life has been crazy. Well, life is always crazy with 7 kids but it's been crazier than normal. Part of it is due to the economy and how it effects my husband's job and then that trickles down to other worries and concerns. Unfortunately I'm the type of person that EATS when things get tough. I want to be the kind that thirsts for exercise to relieve stress.
We received our tax refund. My husband and I decided that our health needs to come first so we purchased a treadmill. It's set up in our garage waiting for me to get on it. I'm waking up at 5am to do 30min. I have my clothes, shoes and ipod set out. I wanted to commit out loud so I'll feel more accountable.
I'll have to make my rounds to check on my weight loss blog buddies. I hope everyone has met with more success than I have. For those of you on the A-team KEEP ON GOING!!! I've missed too many weigh-ins but I'm hoping to do BLBE #3 if one is started again.
Thursday, March 5, 2009
The Numbers Are In
I've been waiting to find out about my cholesterol. I've never had it checked before but had it done at my doctor's appointment on Friday. With my blood pressure higher than normal I've been anticipating a problem with my cholesterol numbers. I was right.
Here they are:
Cholesterol 194
Triglycerides 62
HDL 51
LDL 131 ( with a doctor's note Borderline High)
Also written on the letter I received was, "The goal of your LDL is below 130. A strict low fat diet and exercise regimen should be maintained."
To be honest I don't really understand the numbers or what they mean. I guess to head towards a healthier me I need to know more about health. I'm going to go google the four items above.
Here they are:
Cholesterol 194
Triglycerides 62
HDL 51
LDL 131 ( with a doctor's note Borderline High)
Also written on the letter I received was, "The goal of your LDL is below 130. A strict low fat diet and exercise regimen should be maintained."
To be honest I don't really understand the numbers or what they mean. I guess to head towards a healthier me I need to know more about health. I'm going to go google the four items above.
Monday, March 2, 2009
Facing It and Beginning...AGAIN!
I'm ready to face, once again, the fact that I'm morbidly obese and HAVE to do something about it!
I was feeling discouraged, actually I still am, but I know I have to take action. I know my choices will either get me healthier or make me a little closer to an early earthly departure. I HAVE to do something and I HAVE to begin NOW!
Is my heart 100% in it? NO! Am I 100% completely motivated? NO! Do I WANT the end results? Whole Heartily, YES!!! So that's what I'm grasping onto, the results I envision.
Today is Dr. Seuss Day. My kids' school was doing a read-in along with "Donuts for Dads and Muffins for Moms" My 5th grader said, "Mom, are you going to have a muffin?" I told her no. She said, "Oh, are you back on your diet?" I actually told her that the doctor gave me three months to lose weight and that I needed to do it. I decided to just tell it like it is, I need their help, encouragement and understanding.
It was great to load up all my little ones plus our extra daycare cutie and walk to the school with the kids. It felt wonderful after being down for so long with my stupid leg. It's not quite 10 a.m. yet and I already have 5000 of my steps in.
I worry about the end, about reaching goal and keeping it off. But I can't let that hold me back I've got to take this one day at a time, probably like one minute at a time.
Thanks for the positive words of support and encouragement! It was so what I needed!
I'm changing my weigh-in days to Tuesdays. Just an FYI. After being down for so long and not weighing in last week I'm sure the numbers won't be great tomorrow. But I have to acknowledge the reality to move forward.
I was feeling discouraged, actually I still am, but I know I have to take action. I know my choices will either get me healthier or make me a little closer to an early earthly departure. I HAVE to do something and I HAVE to begin NOW!
Is my heart 100% in it? NO! Am I 100% completely motivated? NO! Do I WANT the end results? Whole Heartily, YES!!! So that's what I'm grasping onto, the results I envision.
Today is Dr. Seuss Day. My kids' school was doing a read-in along with "Donuts for Dads and Muffins for Moms" My 5th grader said, "Mom, are you going to have a muffin?" I told her no. She said, "Oh, are you back on your diet?" I actually told her that the doctor gave me three months to lose weight and that I needed to do it. I decided to just tell it like it is, I need their help, encouragement and understanding.
It was great to load up all my little ones plus our extra daycare cutie and walk to the school with the kids. It felt wonderful after being down for so long with my stupid leg. It's not quite 10 a.m. yet and I already have 5000 of my steps in.
I worry about the end, about reaching goal and keeping it off. But I can't let that hold me back I've got to take this one day at a time, probably like one minute at a time.
Thanks for the positive words of support and encouragement! It was so what I needed!
I'm changing my weigh-in days to Tuesdays. Just an FYI. After being down for so long and not weighing in last week I'm sure the numbers won't be great tomorrow. But I have to acknowledge the reality to move forward.
Saturday, February 28, 2009
I Want to Crawl into a Hole!
I really do!!!! But hiding from the facts is what got me to where I am.
After being down with my blood clot for two weeks I've been anxious to get moving again. I was starting to feel better and knew I could get up and start with some walking. Things were looking up and then a couple of bombs fell.
Bomb #1: On Thursday night my husband received a phone call from his doctor with results from blood work. DIABETES! His fasting count was 233. YIKES!!! He's devestated, kids cried, and the realization that changes for the whole family is needed was brought closer to home.
We went in yesterday to see his doctor so he can get started on some medicine. While we were there I actually found a magazine article about diabetes and it had a great statement that went something like this: Genetics has loaded the cannonball and lifestyle is the fuse.
It's so true! My husband has diabetes in his genetics, his mom and grandmother have it (although they were almost 20 years older than him when it first showed up). My husbands lifestyle (being obese) is what lite the fuse, made the diabetes fire off much earlier than needed. It makes me realize that my children have the cannonball loaded as well and it's my job to teach them how to avoid lighting the fuse.
Bomb #2: I had my long awaited physical yesterday. I've been very happy with my doctor because he is pro-active. He asked me how many things I've tried to lose weight. I laughed and told him you name it I've done it. (Earlier he asked; do you smoke, drink caffeine, alcohol, drugs, etc. When all of my answers were no. He said, wow, you don't have any bad habits. No, just FOOD) After all the poking and proding was done he sat me down and said he was very concerned with my weight and my blood pressure. My blood pressure is normally around 112/68 but consistently for the last two months my bottom number has been in the 80's, NOT GOOD! All of a sudden I started hearing things like stomach stapling, gastric bypass and I felt my heart drop and my appointment took a serious turn.
Doc said, I'm not a proponent for these UNLESS everything else more conventional has been tried and hasn't worked. He said that if I stay morbidly obese that it will do more damage to my body bringing on things that can put my life at risk. As we were finishing the appointment he said, I'll give you three months to see what you can do about getting your weight out of the seriously obese range and into just obese.
I told my sister that having my husband diagnosed with diabetes and my doctor mentioning gastric bypass surgery is a definite wake up call. Not a wake up call, she said, you've been hit on the head with a big bat.
My doctor gave me the goal of 288 by my next appointment, May 29th. I didn't weigh in this week but it's probably a 25lbs goal. If I stay focused and have no more health set backs it's doable.
I'm scared! I'm nervous! I'm mad at myself! I'm disgusted! I know that I can get weight off, I always have, BUT (and this is a HUGE BUT) I have NEVER reached my goal and I have NEVER kept my weight off. I've always put it all back on plus five or so pounds.
These two bombs are adding A LOT of stress in an already very stressed household. How do I handle stress? I EAT!!! I want to be able to crawl away somewhere, ignore the diagnosis my husband and I received, and keep enjoying my wonderful stress-relieving food. But the only place that will get us both is an EARLY GRAVE!
I can do this, we can do this. It's going to take some deep breathing, new recipes, a rescheduling of daily routine to fit in exercise, patience, hard work and even some tears. I can feel the seriousness of this gripping tightly around me in fear and fright. This time has to count, I have to lose, I have to keep it off. I have to do it not just to have a better life but to have A LIFE!
After being down with my blood clot for two weeks I've been anxious to get moving again. I was starting to feel better and knew I could get up and start with some walking. Things were looking up and then a couple of bombs fell.
Bomb #1: On Thursday night my husband received a phone call from his doctor with results from blood work. DIABETES! His fasting count was 233. YIKES!!! He's devestated, kids cried, and the realization that changes for the whole family is needed was brought closer to home.
We went in yesterday to see his doctor so he can get started on some medicine. While we were there I actually found a magazine article about diabetes and it had a great statement that went something like this: Genetics has loaded the cannonball and lifestyle is the fuse.
It's so true! My husband has diabetes in his genetics, his mom and grandmother have it (although they were almost 20 years older than him when it first showed up). My husbands lifestyle (being obese) is what lite the fuse, made the diabetes fire off much earlier than needed. It makes me realize that my children have the cannonball loaded as well and it's my job to teach them how to avoid lighting the fuse.
Bomb #2: I had my long awaited physical yesterday. I've been very happy with my doctor because he is pro-active. He asked me how many things I've tried to lose weight. I laughed and told him you name it I've done it. (Earlier he asked; do you smoke, drink caffeine, alcohol, drugs, etc. When all of my answers were no. He said, wow, you don't have any bad habits. No, just FOOD) After all the poking and proding was done he sat me down and said he was very concerned with my weight and my blood pressure. My blood pressure is normally around 112/68 but consistently for the last two months my bottom number has been in the 80's, NOT GOOD! All of a sudden I started hearing things like stomach stapling, gastric bypass and I felt my heart drop and my appointment took a serious turn.
Doc said, I'm not a proponent for these UNLESS everything else more conventional has been tried and hasn't worked. He said that if I stay morbidly obese that it will do more damage to my body bringing on things that can put my life at risk. As we were finishing the appointment he said, I'll give you three months to see what you can do about getting your weight out of the seriously obese range and into just obese.
I told my sister that having my husband diagnosed with diabetes and my doctor mentioning gastric bypass surgery is a definite wake up call. Not a wake up call, she said, you've been hit on the head with a big bat.
My doctor gave me the goal of 288 by my next appointment, May 29th. I didn't weigh in this week but it's probably a 25lbs goal. If I stay focused and have no more health set backs it's doable.
I'm scared! I'm nervous! I'm mad at myself! I'm disgusted! I know that I can get weight off, I always have, BUT (and this is a HUGE BUT) I have NEVER reached my goal and I have NEVER kept my weight off. I've always put it all back on plus five or so pounds.
These two bombs are adding A LOT of stress in an already very stressed household. How do I handle stress? I EAT!!! I want to be able to crawl away somewhere, ignore the diagnosis my husband and I received, and keep enjoying my wonderful stress-relieving food. But the only place that will get us both is an EARLY GRAVE!
I can do this, we can do this. It's going to take some deep breathing, new recipes, a rescheduling of daily routine to fit in exercise, patience, hard work and even some tears. I can feel the seriousness of this gripping tightly around me in fear and fright. This time has to count, I have to lose, I have to keep it off. I have to do it not just to have a better life but to have A LIFE!
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
This Isn't What I Planned!
I was on FIRE! Right after Christmas I was so ready to get healthy. Motivated, Determined, Un-stoppable were words I would have used to describe me back then.
Somehow that fire was diminished and I struggled for two weeks. My wonderful husband and I went to the beach for a few days the week before Valentine's Day. It was a wonderful time to talk about goals and self-reflection. I was ready to get back in the groove on Monday, February 9th. I did weigh in that morning and was down 1.4lbs. WooHoo! Then a nagging, familiar pain developed in my right calf.
I knew immediately what the pain meant. BLOOD CLOTS, two of them. Thankfully they were superficial, not the traveling kind. I was so frustrated because I knew this was going to slow me down. (this is my 6th time getting them) At my doctor's I was told to take it easy, elevate my leg a lot and not use my computer (I so need a laptop!) and for sure, NO EXERCISING!
I went back in this past Monday. One clot was gone the other one was worse. He said I really needed to take care of it. My doc said NO computer job and NO daycare kids. When I reminded him I have 7 kids he was concerned about how I was going to take care of myslef. No problem, I said, I have two great sisters and a wonderful women's organization at church that are always there when someone's in need.
I'll be meeting with a vascular specialist and will probably have to have my veins stripped or something. This health overhaul is going deeper than I expected.
Staying down and not working out is not helping me eat healthy. What is it about wanting junk food when you're being lazy? I watched Diet Tribe and in the last episode Morgan broke her arm serious enough to require surgery, plates, and pins. She was concerned about weighing in since she hadn't been active for two weeks. She stuck to her healthy eating and amazingly she still lost 7lbs in those two weeks. WOW!
I need to wrap my mind around needing to eating healthy even I'm on the couch most of the day.
Somehow that fire was diminished and I struggled for two weeks. My wonderful husband and I went to the beach for a few days the week before Valentine's Day. It was a wonderful time to talk about goals and self-reflection. I was ready to get back in the groove on Monday, February 9th. I did weigh in that morning and was down 1.4lbs. WooHoo! Then a nagging, familiar pain developed in my right calf.
I knew immediately what the pain meant. BLOOD CLOTS, two of them. Thankfully they were superficial, not the traveling kind. I was so frustrated because I knew this was going to slow me down. (this is my 6th time getting them) At my doctor's I was told to take it easy, elevate my leg a lot and not use my computer (I so need a laptop!) and for sure, NO EXERCISING!
I went back in this past Monday. One clot was gone the other one was worse. He said I really needed to take care of it. My doc said NO computer job and NO daycare kids. When I reminded him I have 7 kids he was concerned about how I was going to take care of myslef. No problem, I said, I have two great sisters and a wonderful women's organization at church that are always there when someone's in need.
I'll be meeting with a vascular specialist and will probably have to have my veins stripped or something. This health overhaul is going deeper than I expected.
Staying down and not working out is not helping me eat healthy. What is it about wanting junk food when you're being lazy? I watched Diet Tribe and in the last episode Morgan broke her arm serious enough to require surgery, plates, and pins. She was concerned about weighing in since she hadn't been active for two weeks. She stuck to her healthy eating and amazingly she still lost 7lbs in those two weeks. WOW!
I need to wrap my mind around needing to eating healthy even I'm on the couch most of the day.
Monday, February 9, 2009
Weekly Results - Week Six
Okay, at least I'm heading back in the right direction! This week's total was a loss of 1.4lbs. YEAH! It's just so motivating to see a loss!
Starting Weight - 320.2
1st week(1/5/09)- 316
2nd week(1/12/09)- 312.8
3rd week(1/19/09)- 307
4th week(1/26/09)- 309.8
5th week(2/2/09) - 313
6th week(2/9/09) - 311.6
I'm still not where I was at the end of week three but I'll get there, maybe even next week!
The director at my son's preschool is quite heavy like me. She's trying to lose weight as well. Last week she asked me, "So how's the walking?" I told her, "Don't even ask!!! But I have come to the realization that I have two directions I can head. #1 to a healthy, fit life OR #2 an unhealthy, painful life. I know I have to make a choice which way I want to go and then I have to do the required steps to get me there."
It's just like a trip. I've dreamed of going to exotic places but dreaming about it won't get me there. I have to plan it, save money for it, get passport, etc... Fantasizing about my healthy body won't make it happen but it will help me keep the end goal in sight. Without the goal, the path, the road, there's no where to head.
(p.s. I have been to two great destinations Nuevo Vallarta, Mexico and Switzerland. My wonderful hubby earned the trips at work. It was a lot of hard work to earn it both on his part and mine but OH, so worth it. I know that getting to my goal weight will be hard but OH, SO WORTH IT!)
Starting Weight - 320.2
1st week(1/5/09)- 316
2nd week(1/12/09)- 312.8
3rd week(1/19/09)- 307
4th week(1/26/09)- 309.8
5th week(2/2/09) - 313
6th week(2/9/09) - 311.6
I'm still not where I was at the end of week three but I'll get there, maybe even next week!
The director at my son's preschool is quite heavy like me. She's trying to lose weight as well. Last week she asked me, "So how's the walking?" I told her, "Don't even ask!!! But I have come to the realization that I have two directions I can head. #1 to a healthy, fit life OR #2 an unhealthy, painful life. I know I have to make a choice which way I want to go and then I have to do the required steps to get me there."
It's just like a trip. I've dreamed of going to exotic places but dreaming about it won't get me there. I have to plan it, save money for it, get passport, etc... Fantasizing about my healthy body won't make it happen but it will help me keep the end goal in sight. Without the goal, the path, the road, there's no where to head.
(p.s. I have been to two great destinations Nuevo Vallarta, Mexico and Switzerland. My wonderful hubby earned the trips at work. It was a lot of hard work to earn it both on his part and mine but OH, so worth it. I know that getting to my goal weight will be hard but OH, SO WORTH IT!)
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